Not sure where to say this, Facebook didn’t seem right. I just wanted a memory of it. Of the feeling. I’m too sick to talk to anyone, but I can text which I have been doing. :D
I feel like I’m trying to make big decisions now, but it has occurred to me I don’t really want to be a nurse - because I don’t want to clean up poop. (but something can convince me otherwise) and decided I want to be a primary care doctor or work in surgery or trauma.
So how to explore trauma, an EMT class. How to explore primary care, medical assisting.
First the EMT class. I’ve had the flu and walked in, a bunch of white guys, either military, conservative families, I’m just like FUCK THIS and text Christine, “I WANT OUT. I WANT OUT!” I was waitlisted, so I was going to see if I wanted to stay in this class or not.
One of the coordinators walked in and talked. 2 years ago, I discussed something about budget cuts and a certain proposition. I thought this was the guy that fuckin hounded me on the topic in front of the entire staff through email. (Luckily, the name was familiar, but he wanted to speak at his class!) But I tried to remember and remember, but in my mind I was like “I probably hate this guy.”
Also going through my mind, I want to stop judging people. They may have different thoughts and views, but I’m like eh fuck it, judge all you want. AND TURNS OUT, WE HAVE MORE IN COMMON than I thought. Maybe a little variation and tweaks…but yeah. I guess I should stop stereotyping firefighters, policemen, parademics, shitfucks… jk! :p
20 minutes in, someone walks in. OH MY GOD. It’s my old lab partner, the person I shared Chem Labs and Bio Labs with, every goddamn morning at 7am. I was so happy to see him. We transferred at the same time, he went to UC Davis and I went to UCLA. He rocked it there. His friends with a lot of my mutual friends, though every time we all were going to go to a bar, I couldn’t - whether I was driving, or getting out of work late. Both of us are thinking about applying to medical school. He waited a year because his girlfriend had thyroid cancer, I’m definitely waiting for grades to improve and also my father. BUT NOW WE ARE BACK AT COMMUNITY COLLEGE. IT IS SERIOUSLY LIKE WE JUST CAME FULL CIRCLE.
okay..maybe it was not that crazy, but the moment was.
The community colleges are different now. It’s strange, but it’s always great to see a familiar face.
(Separate post one day about my dad…one day… it’s just all been going so fast, the last two nights were the first time I’ve stayed in the for the past 8 weeks. The material I am learning though, I hope it will be useful and hopefully for my parents)